Abstract Attention

But I need to type. VENT.

Why is it called vent? Is it because it’s like an air vent?

Whatever it is, I think this hiatus might turn out to be a longer one than I thought.

I’m using my brother’s laptop which is very weird for me because it means I am to sit outside while I use it. I’m usually in my room on my laptop but since my laptop has gone to LAPTOP HEAVEN (which in Singapore by the way) for ‘uhh, sebulan labih kali entah kami pun inda pasti’, aku pakai ani saja. Why it’s weird? For the sole reason of me having to be outside. It’s weird for me.

Anyways. Yeah, I need to vent. The thing iss, I don’t know if what I can say is appropriate for everyone to read so I cannot vent freely. Which beats the purpose of having a personal blog. I shall resort to journal-ing I suppose. Which is whyy I might have to send my blog to Blog Heaven. I don’t know a lot but I’m pretty sure it’s not in Singapore.

I don’t reaaaally want to list reasons of why I’m shutting down my blog. Yes, that is what I’m going to do if you didn’t catch it from my obscure rambling. No one is blaming you, I wouldn’t have understood it either. I don’t think I need to list reasons. I’m just done with this part of.. this. Hee-hee.

I would like to thank everyyyone for their support or non-support, time, opinion, openness or closeness; pokoknya APA APA LAH. I’ve not been the BEST blogger (I know that because I’ve never WON anything hoho) Nevertheless I would still like to thank you! The blog has served it’s purpose and it has been an eye-opening journey.

Best wishes FOREVER,

Rina 🙂

P.S. No, I don’t know if I’m going to open another blog.

P.P.S No, not even in the FUTURE.

P.P.P.S. I LOVE YOU ALL.

My laptop is BROKEN.

Well, it’s not broken but something is wrong with it. And actually; not just ONE thing is wrong with it but a couple of things.

Sent it to the Laptop Hospital and it was asked to get a week’s rest and no fluids at all 😛

But ya. My point is that I don’t have a laptop this week! I hope seminggu saja banar ya mengusai. I have a feeling INDA seminggu but we’ll wish for the best. I hope I get it back before Sarah’s and Ems’ birthdays! If inda, that would so suck.

I guess what I’m really trying to say issssssssssssssss HIATUS.

Have a super everyday-til-I-see-you-next-so-I-can-wish-you-something-else! And good luck to all my buddies who are having exams! And and I can’t wait to see you guys back in Brunei! And and!! (No, I’m not done) don’t forget to BE YOURSELF. Okay. Now I’m done.

Bye and Assalamualaikum.

Oooh, I just noticed a new thingy on WordPress! There’s a poll thingy! What should I have a poll about ah? Hmmm. I’ll have a long think about the thingK. Apakan.

Was too busy to post yesterday. I know! Me! Busy! Whodathunk? Today I’m not (as much) soo I think I’m going to just rant and rave about nothing in particular. You know. The usual.

I’ve been watching Winter Sonata (the old kdrama) these past couple of days and ohemgee Bae Yong Joon looks like a baby lah. Awalani saja usulnya macam samurai ani. Dulu-dulu macam.. bukan samurai. I apologise, it’s still early.

AnyVAY. I don’t really have anything new to say so here are some thoughts that are floating around in my head.

1) I need a new haircut and some pears and some chocolate.

2) I think I want some goldfish. NO YOU CAN’T BUY ONE, IT WAS MY IDEA FIRST. LIKE IT ALWAYS IS.

3) Where did all my ‘Rina’ stickers go ah? Ems, are they with you? Because I remember something about me being a *cough*little*cough* irrational and wanting to stick ‘Rina’ stickers all over your belongings. Did I actually do it already??

4) Blingblingblingkaronggg bliiiiiiiiiiiingkarongggggggggg. Blingblingblingkarong bliiiiIIIIiiingkarronggggggggg.

What am I doing today? Uhh, since today is a Friday I guess I will do Friday things. I don’t really know what Friday things are, but I guess I should go find out.

I’m so excited at the prospect of having to think up of a question worth enough to poll. Apa baik ahhhhhh.

Have a very ‘Friday’ Friday everybody! Anddon’tletanyonetellyouanydifferent.

P.S. Today’s Rina-song isssss… Dammit. I’m sorry I can’t think of a song, I’m too excited about the poll!!!!!!!!

Just because you’re an idiot doesn’t mean everyone else is too.

Phewwwwwwwwwwwww. That’s the only thing I’m going to say about that.

How are you today? I hope everybody is sprightly. I’m not even sure if that was the word I was thinking of when I typed it. But that’s what came out and it’s okay. No matter. I’m looking past the details and at the big picture.

The big picture sees me not being bothered by the tiny details. I am beyond that. I am zen. I’ve spent too much time and energy looking at the tiny details. Yeah, I know that’s what’s important bla bla. Don’t tell me what I already know. I had a WHOLE BLOG about the tiny details. Do you remember it? Btw, that is also part of my big picture. Tell me what I don’t know. I don’t need to hear what I already know. I might have STML (short-term memory loss), but trust me. If I forgot it, it probably wasn’t important enough in the first place.

A part of the big picture is also not being NOT HAPPY anymore. I think I’ll still be annoyed, a little bit angry and ehm, forceful. But not NOT HAPPY. Have I ever told you why I say ‘not happy’ and not ‘unhappy’? No? Wait, I don’t have time for that anymore. I’m looking at the bigger picture now! Forget that. Where was I? Yeah, a picture. Anyhow, it’s no big deal really. I’m just tired of being in a rut.

You know what this is? This is me taking charge of the situation.

Have an empowered Wednesday because I can’t promise you’ll feel the same way tomorrow.

P.S. Rina-song today would just have to be Bust Your Windows – Jazmine Sullivan. Because there is no significance or relatability even if the song is about an angry-ish person who is unaware of what she is capable of. Honest!

P.P.S. I know it’s highly annoying that I am being so obscure and I’m rambling about things you probably can’t even begin to try to figure out, but the bigger picture is that I’m still here and nothing (really) has changed and you are here to read about what I have to say. That is my point! But if you’re not happy with it, that’s okay too.

Actually he kinda was heavy. And he’s not my brother. So cemana? 😛

I don’t feel like talking today.

I was looking through Raya pictures that I’ve stolen, and there are probably 8 out of 200 pictures that I’m proper. Gambar lain semua ku beulah! What does that tell you about me? I have my tongue sticking out and peace signs everywhere, I look like I’m channeling Fidel Castro in one and there’s this one where I look like a total derr-brain. I always thought it was impossible to LOOK like one if you weren’t one to begin with! Kesian jua aku ani eh. I always thought I took pictures well! I was truly mistaken.

Anyways, on to other issues with less self-sympathy involved.

I rarely step on scales and when I do, I always get off thinking ‘Huh. Well. I’m not surprised. Ish’. I have no story on that. I’m 90% sure that was a great lead in to something (were it someone else telling this story but it’s me sooo), I just don’t have any other anecdote concerning my weight except for the fact that I checked it this morning and I thought ‘Huh. Well. I’m not surprised. Ish’. So yes.

Is it me, or has the point of this post gotten lost somewhere in my mess? So much for chipping away the mental blocks. Which was, by the way, my plan for tonight. At least I wanted to try to lah.

Sudah tah eh. Ngaleh ku. I thought I needed to rant but I’m suddenly overcome with nothingness. Does that happen to you?

Hope Monday was not just another manic one for you than it was for me. See what I did there? Sorta.

Here’s to a better Tuesday.

P.S. Rina-song today is Toxic – Britney Spears. Because Marha was right. Even after three days, Singstar is awesome. C’mon. I know at least 4 of you know what I’m talking about. I have proof, don’t lie.

But why am I still sick? I’ve been such a good girl at taking my medicine tapi ani habis sudah ubat nya. Cemana ni? I actually slept without my air-con on because I was too cold last night. Sekali aku liat korea sekali aku nangis lagi? Wuish.

Yesterday felt really long for me. I made baby cupcakes for fun to bring to Tua’s open house and I ended up smelling like chocolate the entire day. I’m sure no one else except me could smell it because I’m crazy like that. Mandi ku sudah tu apa, but I could still smell it! It must’ve just been in my head. I have pictures! Well, I don’t have pictures but Hudiya has pictures so we shall get it off her soon.

Today sees a couple of open houses and some more sleeping for me. When I get better, I want a real big milkshake. Like a GINORMAGANTIC one.

As you know though, all is well-ish in Whoville.

Say hello to Saturday!

P.S. Today’s Rina-song is Cannonball – Damien Rice. Yea man, I don’t know what’s with the ‘bunuh-diri’ songs either. I’m just the messenger. I’m guessing it’s the sick thing.

My first teeeeeeeeenage looooooove affaaaair~

I just found out that this one drawer that I have has lots of treasures in it! Macam extra toothbrush, a couple of old CDs that I used to listen to religiously and some other crap lah. But they were treasures a few minutes ago.

Today is Friday the 10th of October. I’m preetty sure I have something on today but I don’t remember apa. I’ll have a flick through my organiser a bit later. Yes, I’m STILL using my organiser. Despite my super-phone, I still rely on my purple organiser. Which reminds me, I need a 2009 one.

I keep watching the same movie over and over again and I think it’s making me think in circles. Because when I see the same things, I’m reminded of the same things then I think about the same thinks things. Haha, I made a funny.

I have nothing of extreme importance anywhere on this post. All this typing was done purely as a time-filler. I’m sorry for the misleading title.

Have a fantastic Friday and an equally if not more fantastic weekend.

P.S. Today’s Rina-song issssssssssss Chasing Pavements – Adele.

HALLOI.

Yeah, I’m blogging more because I have no one to speak to. My mother, brother and Jaroh left for Surabaya yesterday which means it is just me and my sister. My sister is at work so I am left alone to fend for myself.

I need to get some shampoo because I’m running out already. Prasanku baru jua ku bali shampoo ani kan habis tia. Gorilla pun inda habis laju cemani ni shampoonya. Cemana buleh ah? Maybe I spilt some or the bottle is broken. Malas ku kan bali lagi bah. Cemana ni cemana ni.

I want to buy a keyboard because the piano is too heavy to bring upstairs. I also want some warm water and salt so I can gargle. My throat hurts and I have boy-voice. Sometimes I even have no-voice! Eh tapinya kan atu mimpi tu kali. Because I’ve had these dreams these past couple of nights that I open my mouth and nothing comes out! I scream and shout and nothing! That can’t mean anything good.

I have been listening to d’Masiv’s album the past few days. I like all the songs on it because I can sing really loudly to it all.

Being sick is really not fun. It’s only fun when you’re doing something and getting sick is an excuse to stay home. When you are home voluntarily already, being sick is just not right. It’s wrong! I don’t understand tissues and feeling hot when it’s cold and feeling cold when it’s hot. I’m apalled that typing hurts because my fingertips seem hypersensitized. My face is swollen and I look like a gumball. And last but not least, I hate cough medicine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Eh one more. Food tastes like cardboard. Which is just crazy!

Yeah, I haven’t been sick in awhile.

Time to sleep some more before I pick up Odea.

I feel like a sick person!

Okay fine, I am sick pulang but I didn’t feel like a sick person yesterday. But today I feel so sick! (..of love songs, so tired of teaaars. So done with wishing, you were still heeere) Apakan lagi.

I am currently waiting for Heroes to finish downloading. It’s not as siuk this season lah, but I have to download this week punya because last week’s cliffhanger was gila. Sooo yatah. 94.1% sudah. Skajap lagi. Zoooooooooooom.

Speaking of yo-yos (inda jua sebenarnya), my weight has been going up and down since I got back. Ngaleh ku eh. Well.. not really ngaleh lah. It’s not like I’m doing anything :p It’s just strange, that’s all. I have to keep changing clothes. You know what I mean? Like, all the ‘smaller’ ones used to be at the bottom of the clothes pile have to be brought to the top this week because I lost a BIT of weight. Skali next week, I have to put them away again because I gained a LOT and I can’t fit into them anymore! Annoying kann.

Anyways, the DRUGS the Doctor gave me is sort of strong. Once I take them, I can feel my body going to sleep. (Ka Dah, kemarin aku tidur masa traffic jam! LOL) Sort of strange though because I’m not a big ‘sleep-everywhere’ person pulang. Plus I still have stuff to do so I can’t be bloody sleeping every time I get 3 seconds. So I have to be reaaaally careful to NOT close my eyes for too long. In any case, at least I’m keeping busy. Whatever that means.

So I leave you with some Hari Raya pictures from Simpang 31. Click to henlarge and henjoi.